Friday, September 19, 2014

Healthy Go: Ups and Downs

Stair day 1.
Stair day 2.

Ah, so it’s been a while. How’ve you been doing?

I’ve been okay. Still tickin’.

I am taking one course this semester. It is in a five-storey building. I plan to get to campus early enough to take the stairs, and do extra stairs if I’m really early. Campus is the best place that I know of to do a lot of stairs; there aren’t much stairs in my neighborhood and I don’t particularly like stair machines.

Anyway, stairs. I did 8 flights, up and down, the first time, 9 flights this past week. I was out of stepping shape, but not too badly. I also had at least 2- 15 minute moderate walk both days.

Speaking of walking, an out-of-town friend is visiting, and so we met up the other day. We walked for at least an hour, maybe closer to two hours.

You know what’s lame? I am. I haven’t used the exercise mat yet. *facepalm*

I need to get my diet back on track as well. I haven’t been terrible about it, but I also haven’t been cooking lately, which can only mean that I haven’t been eating as healthy as before.

My sleeping has been crazy. I’ve been trying.

Not too great. Not too terrible.

Get this show back on the road, Jenn!

May this day find you healthy and well on your way!

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Thursday, September 18, 2014

Get Used Up To It Project Update - September 2014


[Original post: Get Used Up To It Project]

I know, that was an awkward title. My thinking was that I had two goals for the project:

1. To use up products
2. To get used to using certain products

Hence, getting used up to it. You don’t have to understand it - just go with it, I’ll take care of you. Or something.

I don’t wear makeup every day. This project has me wearing makeup about 3 -4 days a week, even if I’m just staying home. I don’t consider it a waste of product though; one of the main reasons why I don’t know how to use certain products well is because I don’t wear makeup that often, but this project encourages me to wear makeup more and therefore, to become more comfortable and more skilled with using things.

Let’s get on with the update.

The List

1. Revlon Colorstay Whipped Foundation
2. MAC Studio Fix Powder Foundation
3. Rimmel Stay Matte Powder
4. Nuance Tinted Moisturizer
5. Revlon Photoready Concealer
6. Milani Baked Blush -Luminoso
7. Maybelline Color Tattoo - Bad to the Bronze
8. - Audacious Asphalt
9. Sei Bella (Nicole Miller) Eyeshadow Duo Compact - Caribbean/ Midnight
10. - Fiji/ Moss
11. Benefit They’re Real Mascara (sample)
12. Physicians Formula Shimmer Strips Nude Eyeliner - Pewter
13. Sei Bella Definition Brow Pencil - Brunette
14. Revlon Super Lustrous Lipstick -Smoked Peach
15. Revlon Lip Butter -Strawberry Shortcake
16. Sei Bella Lipstick - Sunripened
17. NYX Mega Shine Lip Gloss -Frosted Beige
18. NYX Xtreme Lip Cream -Pinky Nude
19. Revlon Just Bitten Kissable Balm Stain - Crush
20. Essie nail polish - A Crewed Interest
21. China Glaze nail polish - Peachy Keen

*22. Tarte Maracuja Miracle Foundation

Revlon Colorstay Whipped Foundation (finished) &
MAC Studio Fix Powder Foundation
Products I have finished up were the Revlon Colorstay Whipped Foundation and Essie A Crewed Interest nail polish. I had gotten 4 more uses out of the foundation and I wiped it pretty clean, so that was easy. I looked into nail polish thinners; the best value I saw was a 4 ounce bottle for little over $2, but I didn’t care to buy that much for one nail polish with such few uses in it. I found a 2 ounce bottle for about the same price, but that is still too much to save so little polish.

Maybelline Color Tattoo in Bad to the Bronze &
Sei Bella Eyeshadow in Caribbean/ Midnight;
looks the same as before, though used the bronze often.
I’ve used the Caribbean/ Midnight Sei Bella eyeshadow duo and the MAC Studio Fix twice. I didn’t touch Revlon Smoked Peach, Revlon Strawberry Shortcake, NYX Frosted Beige, Revlon Crush, Fiji/ Moss Sei Bella duo, or the Maybelline Audacious Asphalt.

Milani Baked Blush in Luminoso: this is going to take a long
time before any progress becomes noticeable!
Otherwise, I’ve been making good use of the rest of the items, marked in bold. Milani Luminoso, NYX Pinky Nude, Maybelline Bad to the Bronze, Sei Bella Brow pencil, I have used nearly each time that I’ve worn makeup. I should have marked the starting length of the stick products so that I could tell any progress; I have marked them for next time. For the other products, it’s not easy to mark usage, like with the Nuance Tinted Moisturizer which is in a black tube, so I can’t tell how much I have used it.

Rimmel Stay Matte Powder; look at that pan!
However, the Rimmel Stay Matte powder is showing signs of usage, meaning: I’ve hit pan on it! I’ve used it pretty much each time that I’ve worn makeup. Just look at that beautiful sliver of silver.

Tarte Maracuja Miracle Foundation (added item)

One change that I’ve decided on was to use up another liquid foundation, so I will be adding the *Tarte Maracuja Miracle Foundation to the list. I will focus on using the Tarte foundation and the Nuance tinted moisturizer more so than the Studio Fix, keeping it all on the list but since the Studio Fix is powder and can last longer, I’ll focus on the liquid ones. It’s not easy to tell the level of the foundation in this frosted glass bottle, but I did my best to mark it at the lowest probable sign of usage (at the corner).

Using certain products on a regular basis, I do think that I am improving on technique. I have been using a lighter hand with the powder, and I think it’s been looking and wearing better. Use of blush has gotten more even left and right, I think, but that has more to do with my lighting. Eyeliner use has improved. I’m still not easy with the brow pencil or the concealer, but I am going to continue working on them.

So, I am getting used to using products, products are getting used up - the project is going well, I’d say.

2 products down, 1 added, 20 products to go!

I shall carry on with this project another month. See you then!

Essie Nail Lacquer in A Crewed Interest (throw out) &
China Glaze in Peachy Keen.
September 2014 Products - remaining lengths

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Monday, September 15, 2014

Confession: Happy Endings

Quick, before I lose courage.

I believe in Happy Endings.

Not fairytale happily-after-all endings.

Just the love-for-a-lifetime kind of happy ending. One man. One woman. They find each other. They’re happy, then they fight, and if they get through it together, they face life together, stronger together, happier together. In sickness and in health. For richer or for poorer. Loving each other until death.

(Though I suppose, how does one know that it’s a happy ending or not until it… ends?)

I believe in Love.

To be more exact.

As much as I say and want to believe that I’m a fighter… I get tired sometimes. I want to quit sometimes.

But I don’t tell anyone.

Maybe that’s a part of why I believe in Love. I want that person that I can talk to. I want someone I can fight with, without worrying that this fight might cause them to finally walk away from me for good.

Finding someone to laugh with is easy. Finding someone who isn’t afraid to go through the tough times with me, … it’s not looking good. It hasn’t looked good for a long time.

I wanted to be that person for someone.

I think back on my life and it’s been very quiet. I mean that I’m very quiet. Even when I talk a lot, I don’t say anything of any significance.

How long can someone go like that?

(No, I am not having suicidal thoughts at the moment. I’m just thinking out loud in writing.)

People say that I can talk to them, that they’ll listen and that they care… but I’ve been through that before and let down so many times…

That one gives up, more and more. Each time, one is slower to recover from the last. It's a struggle not to pull away.

Or just to have someone I can count on to just be here for me. No talk. I might cry. Awkward silence. Then I’ll try to make someone laugh so that I might laugh. I don’t know.

And I’m tired of being people’s scapegoat, taking the blame for why things didn’t work out or why they don’t like how I do things or they heard someone say I did that or whatever!

Isn’t it enough that I blame myself for the things I’ve actually done and not done?

When do I get to just be me?

This is the stuff I don’t tell anyone. This is the stuff I only tell to Jesus Christ. Jesus knows I’m tired. Jesus doesn’t care who is accusing me. It’s okay that I’m stupidly stubborn. It’s not so bad that I’m quiet because I don’t know how to say it. He waits. He listens. He knows. He lifts me on my feet again. And again. And again.

I second- and third-unto-forever-guess myself so much.

I believe in Love. I’m just not so sure about an earthly Love for me. I don’t know if I’m giving up just yet. At this point, I think I’m too weak and vulnerable to risk more heartache. Most of the time, I’m the one putting myself through it. Sigh.

I don’t know how to do this.

I think it’s time for me to sleep. Tomorrow could be a better day.

Thank you for reading my babble. I’m sorry that you read my babble.

May you be a blessing to someone else so they might end today happy.

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

Feline*osophy 20140901

Charis doesn’t say much. She takes longer than I do to think about what to say. When she does speak, one knows it’s bound to be profound.

Here are her thoughts on “water”:

Charis says “Merowr”, which I think translates to:

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