I know. Another huge gap in posts here and on MYOH.
First of all, I am generally okay. I am alive, I am relatively healthy, and the cats are all alive.
Secondly, I have had a couple of good days with a couple of good friends. A friend came back for a visit and I also got caught up with another friend who has just been busy.
Thirdly, this inconsistency in posting is probably going to be continuing for a while.
|June 24 - Sunny Skies in Waikiki with Rachel|
I am in a transition period of re-entering a place that I had left. It’s going to be difficult and uncomfortable and emotional and scary for me, and yet it is good that I do this. I’m okay with difficult and uncomfortable, most of the time. I mean, I tend to seek out challenges and I’m never really sure where my comfort zone is or that I have one at all. I tend to see uncomfortable situations as opportunities for growth because as I get comfortable (familiar) with something, I am learning something new that’s going to help me move towards the next uncomfortable thing. Or, tackling sin in my life can be uncomfortable and challenging, yet I know that it will be good for me to confront it. I do not enjoy stagnation.
Mosquitos grow in stagnant water. I’m just saying.
|June 19 - Swap Meet & Clear Skies with Shelly|
The emotional and the scary are what have me hesitant as this all goes forward. I am unused to being emotional in front of people. One isn’t called “cold-hearted” for no reason, several times. It doesn’t mean I don’t cry. I usually cry at home, in my room, alone. Usually, that’s enough for me. This situation is going to have me at least tearing up, a lot, plain for people to see.
When others are emotional, my initial reaction is like a guy’s reaction. So, when I am the emotional one where it’s so serious that it’s in front of people, it tends to mean that I am in crisis. I haven’t had much experience in crying out of joy either, yet, perhaps, and I think that would be easier to handle.
Clarification: I am a female. Born a female. Love being a female. I am Woman, hear me roooa-*cough* AYO.
I’m trying to prepare myself for the coming tough season.
The fighter in me wants to defiantly shout “BRING IT ON!”
It is not that kind of situation, as it is the one that had knocked the fighter unconscious for awhile and kicked the fighter while she was down. Making a comeback is not always easy.
For my love of sports movies, I cannot think of one that would draw the image of what I am facing. I am not Rudy. I am not Coach Dale… well, not quite. Maybe a little like the Million Dollar Baby, only it’s been awhile and I don’t recall the story that clearly. Maybe a little of Nate Ruffin from We Are Marshall.
I am going into it with God’s guidance and strength. I need him to go before me and fight for me on this one, completely.
I thank you for staying with me, for checking in. If you’re a praying person, I would appreciate it if you would make some small mention of me, namely that I would heed God’s guidance.
Let me know if there is something you would like prayer over, and that’s even if you’re not a praying person because I am completely a praying person and what have you got to lose?
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