Monday, August 27, 2012

I’m Coming to America!

I know what you’re gonna say. “Hawai‘i is a member of the United States.” You would be correct.

Thanks, Google Maps!

Reminds me of how I was hired by a certain store twice. The first time was in CA, where I walked in and was hired on the spot, but then promptly walked out because the manager kept asking me for my green card. The manager didn’t understand what I was saying about my ID and Hawaii. About a year later, I was hired by the same company at the store in HI- no green card required and I met some wonderful people.

Hawaii does seem like a totally different country at times, doesn’t it?

So, I am soon to be on [Mission: Have Fun Stormin’ Seattle!]. I will be gone for a while; I might even stay there…?


I guess I’ll have to come back.

So, I will be taking the Fire with me, but I don’t know if I will be able to post any updates while I’m up there. I haven’t posted to this journal through the Fire before so I shall try it out, but if it’s too humbug, you’ll just have to suck it up and miss me for the time being!

I’m kidding. I’ll have to suck it up and miss you.

I will have to see how the remote posting goes and how much stormin’ fun I’ll be doing. Oh shoot, just realized that whatever happens, I won’t be able to post any pictures. Hmm. Maybe I should wait until after I get back to post about the trip? We’ll see.

Oh! And I am a couple days behind on the Bible read. And… I am pretty tired today to type out a reflection.

I have been scrambling around the past week, trying to get a schedule set and get things ready before and for Stormin’.

So. I will miss you in the coming days. If you’re in the Seattle area, message me or call me somehow and let’s meet up!

And... check out the new "About Me" page- I finally made a more official one- find it on the page link bar near the top of this journal. Comments welcome. Please be gentle?

Bye for now! And thank you for reading!

Friday, August 24, 2012

Healthy Go: Down to Busy-ness

Has it been THAT hot? Yeah, I guess so. I'm parched too.

Good evening,

I am on yet another detour in life. Actually, this one is more like a touristy rest stop. So I’ve become busier than I’ve been in a few years, which isn’t much compared to normal people. I still have a lot of “free” time.

What it does mean is that I now have to prioritize things a bit better. I also have to be a little more intentional with things pertaining to this journey towards better health.

For this first week of busy-ness, I did okay. I didn’t do great, but I did better than I have before. Today (Friday) was my longest day this week but I am not dying. In fact, I have some energy left! I had a tiring bus ride, tiring because it was packed with people and I got punched in the arm with a lot of bags and stuff, and avoided some armpit-face time (crowded bus, mind you), but otherwise it was okay. I did a lot of walking today.

Before, I would have needed a nap somewhere. Or three naps. And I would’ve been less inclined to walk as much as I did.

Monday: Spicy Ahi Donburi, Sushi Company.
One of my faves.
I did forget to have a proper breakfast today, not because I didn’t plan on it but because I forgot to eat it! Oi. I got home and someone asked me about the English muffin in the toaster- oops. I tell ya’, those early mornings are tricksters…. I totally thought I had breakfast today. Sigh.

Tanioka Friday! last week. Hash patties, shrimp tempura, and
salmon patties. 
I also didn’t have a schedule set this week; that is what I have been trying to figure out and won’t be completely set until next week. So, for me, this meant that I didn’t get in the water drinking. I took my water bottle with me, but since I’ve been riding the bus and running around to settle a schedule, trying to meet with people, I didn’t always know when I would be able to find a bathroom or have a break, and it is not fun being on the bus with a full bladder- trust me on that. Once I have my schedule set, I should be back on track with the water.

I SO wanted a mushroom burger this week but didn’t. I was able to eat the same things I’ve been eating pretty much. Earlier in the week, I grabbed a bag of frozen vegetables and will be seeing how I can incorporate that into my diet (and by “diet” I just mean “what I’m eating,” not like a program or trick).

I could work on:
Maintaining a rather regular sleep schedule

Preplanning meals and preparing snacks- this includes knowing where I can grab something healthy to eat and planning a budget for eating away from home

Schedule in exercise and do it- I shouldn’t rely solely on all the walking I have to do


Workouts for the week:

Insane Home Fat Loss- Sexy Abs
Side plank raises- one side at a time; Side leg lifts- one side at a time; Alligator pushups; leg & arm lifts

I followed the demonstration round and the 2 full rounds in the video. For the side leg lifts, I used a 10#. I really tried to do the alligator pushups the way that she was doing it, but couldn’t manage the pushup and moving the legs at the same time, so I did the leg moves from a plank position. Otherwise, I did okay.

And, like I mentioned before, I got in more walking this week than usual. So hopefully regular exercising will also be easier to work in once I know what time I have.

This week’s stats----
Weight: no weigh in
Size: 10/ M
Activity: Still need to increase
Food: maintaining calorie goal; looking to eat healthier foods in general
Liquids: H2O 24+ oz. (need to increase); NO SODAS!

Current Goal----
Grey size 10 shorts

Well, it wasn’t a great week, as I essentially went backwards a few steps (missing breakfast, not getting water or exercise in), but overall, I feel a lot better than I have in the past. I’m not feeling defeated at all and that is a good sign.

I also tried on some dresses at TJMaxx and found some that looked decent on me, size medium- yay! I didn’t cringe as I looked at the mirror. I’m still probably a large in tops though but that’s, well, to be expected.

I think the main things to have a positive impact so far has been drinking water (not having that extra sugar from sodas like before) and not having the guilt from eating bad stuff because I haven’t eaten bad stuff. Oh, and having rather regular sleep is pretty great!

This coming week will be a little challenging as I will be on the first trip I’ve been on in a good while. It will be a new experience as I figure out how to do healthy things for the first time while on a trip!

So, do something healthy this coming week and see how much better you feel, then remember that feeling and do the healthy thing again! That’s my advice and let me know what you’ve decided on or what you did afterwards.

Thank you for reading and here’s to a healthy future!

Monday, August 20, 2012

Day 233: Human Wisdom

Wow, most of the year is over!

Last week’s readings: Psalm 89-106, Romans 14-16, and 1 Corinthians 1-3.
Status: I am current with the reading plan.

This is a good reading time for me as I enjoy reading the questioning yet trusting heart in Psalms and then also the loving yet matter-of-fact qualities in Paul’s letters to the churches.

I have been going back and forth about deactivating my Facebook account. One of the reasons for deactivation is the meanness and outright disrespect going around, particularly in the political and/or religious postings.

I’m all for having one’s opinion and expressing it, but I’m not interested in all the posts that are more like shout matches, or the rude and sometimes insensitive comments that people make. Whatever happened to open (and respectful) debate? Whatever happened to hearing both sides and making informed decisions? I guess Facebook and other such social sites are not so conducive to open debates, though I have not had much good debate experiences in “real life” situations either.

One of the main reasons for keeping my Facebook? Shopping deals! Haha, yes, but more so, I think about the potential for reaching out to people about the Christian faith. What is shown by many of the Facebook posts that have the ability to get under my skin is the misunderstanding that goes on about the Christian faith. I get it too, because there are many things about the faith that keeps me questioning, and I won’t ever have all the answers in this world.

I am not the very model of a Christian individual. I make mistakes, I have my rash reactions, I am rarely as loving as I ought to be. Yet, someday, or some moments, God might use me to be an ambassador of Christ… even possibly through Facebook. Who knows?

Anyways, on Facebook and in person, there is a good probability of coming across some arrogance. I generally enjoy hanging around with smart people because of the great potential of learning something new or of being corrected about a fact.

What I do not enjoy is when someone talks down to me. I highly resent being talked down to. I know a lot of people who are way above me in intelligence yet do not talk down to me. I try to learn from them how to do that, because I am not immune to arrogance either.

1 Corinthians 18-25~
[18] The message of the cross is foolish to those who are headed for destruction! But we who are being saved know it is the very power of God.
[19] As the scriptures say, “I will destroy the wisdom of the wise and discard the intelligence of the intelligent.”
[20] So where does this leave the philosophers, the scholars, and the world’s brilliant debaters? God has made the wisdom of this world look foolish.
[21] Since God in his wisdom saw to it that the world would never know him through human wisdom, he has used our foolish preaching to save those who believe.
[22] It is foolish to the Jews, who ask for signs from heaven. And it is foolish to the Greeks, who seek human wisdom.

[23] So when we preach that Christ was crucified, the Jews are offended and the Gentiles say it’s all nonsense.
[24] But to those called by God to salvation, both Jews and Gentiles, Christ is the power of God and the wisdom of God.

[25] This foolish plan of God is wiser than the wisest of human plans, and God’s weakness is stronger than the greatest of human strength.

I would like to sound wise, or better yet, to actually be wise. How much fun would that be, am I right?

I think about how much ministry I could do or how well I could do it. I think about how I could have a wise response when someone asks a question of faith. I think about how I might respond to those Facebook comments about the Christian faith. I think about how someone might stumble onto my blog and start wondering about this faith.

Yet I am unwise in most respects.

You know. You’re reading this post and might have read previous posts in which I have been unintelligible. You might be a fellow believer yet think that I am not representing the faith well, or you might be an unbeliever and think I’m foolish for believing.

It’s okay because what the 1 Corinthians passage is saying to me at this time is that I don’t have to have all the answers. I don’t have to have the correct and wise response to those Facebook posts. It’s all in God’s plan about who believes and who doesn’t, or about who comes to believe and when and how.

Man, that takes the pressure off of me! I often start to prepare a post, maybe spend hours on it, only to not post it because it isn’t great or funny or wise or exactly how I want it, etc.

I, as believer, ought to keep trusting and following God. And in that, allow him to prepare me for use in his plan.

The wonderful thing is that God can use even my unwise moments to show someone else God’s glory.

I’m not sure what to say after that as a closing. I hope that you are well. You are welcome to leave a comment in the box below. I appreciate you taking the time to read this post, as always but I like saying it again every so often (“repetition is key!”- who knows where I learned that from?).

Again, thank you for reading and may you have a good week!

Friday, August 17, 2012

Healthy Go: Get Back To It!

Blue Diamond Almonds and Pirate's
Booty Aged White Cheddar.

Hello friends!

I believe my brain is back to work. Though I didn’t take much of a detour on my healthy journey, I do feel like this past week was about getting back on track.

Saturday, I had an early and somewhat long work day- it was a one-day job. I was able to get in 4 bottles of water that day (96 oz.) easily. I was mostly sitting but also did some walking too. It was okay.

Left:1 bottle = 3 cups; 4 bottles.
Right: Bottle counter at 4.
I got in at least 3 bottles of water everyday (72 oz.). Saturday and Tuesday, I got in the 4 bottles of water, which also means that I had less lemon iced tea. I’ve been snacking on the usual Snapea Crisps, but also Pirate’s Booty Aged White Cheddar since it was on sale, and I started having almonds around also. The almonds really kept me going through the one-day job.

Watermelon'Rita & lobster dinner.
I forgot to mention in the previous update that my family and I went out to dinner to celebrate a birthday. I had a Watermelon’Rita (guess where we went); it was okay but I don’t think it’s my taste so won’t have it again. For dinner, I’ve been used to saving half for another meal later, been doing that for awhile now and did so this time with the lobster and potato. I dip the tiniest portion of a lobster bite into the butter for taste. Oh, I love baked potatoes! Yet I don’t enjoy slathering it with butter anymore; I put just enough for flavor.

My cat is still sleeping in my room but I’ve started to keep the other 2 cats out so that I could sleep a little easier.

I’ve also been doing a little extra reading: Flavia Del Monte’s Flavilicious Fitness and Nutrition.  This blog is geared towards helping women get healthy and fit. I’ve been following it for a month so far and found some helpful tips. I haven’t used it too much for the fitness part and more so for the nutrition and motivation parts: she does a Motivation Monday series that sometimes gives me something to think about in what I’m doing.

Workouts for the week:

On the ball- knee pull-ins: I was going to do a video but I had a difficult time doing some of the other exercises due to lack of space. Instead, I tried another video.

Body Rock- Hot & Sexy
jumping jacks; high knees w/ twist; shuffle touches; heel kicks

+2 more exercises, but the toe was hurting; I had to rest it after those 4 exercises. I’ll try it again another time. I need either a shoe with the toe cut out or very supportive reinforced socks. The thing is to allow room for my toe to move around in the shoe, not have the shoe upper to smash against my toe, and to have support in the arch area, because the arch is the next thing to hurt when I work out if I don’t wear shoes. Any suggestions?

Wednesday- I was home, trying to work on some personal projects. Whenever I got up for something, or if I was watching a video, I did something, like jumping jacks or skaters or some kickboxing moves. I wanted to see if I could still get moves in while mostly doing things at the computer.

BodyRock- Take Me for A Little Ride
10 high knees + 5 deep squats; Exploding pushups; Around the Worlds + deep lunges; Plank Jump Overs

I did the 3 rounds shown in the video. For the first and third exercises with weights, I used one 10-lb. free weight. I am not comfortable yet to do exploding or walking pushups, so I just did regular pushups; I did them on my knees by the middle of the second round. For the planks, I hopped more than jumped over, so I could focus on form and monitor my bad leg (knee and toe mainly), and the third round I just did a straight plank. I was tired. It was a good, sweaty workout!

This week’s stats----
Weight: no weigh in
Size: 10
Activity: Still need to increase
Food: maintaining calorie goal; looking to eat healthier foods in general
Liquids: H2O 72+ oz. (maintain)

Current Goal----
I’ve decided that my next goal will be my grey size 10 shorts. I seem to like the clothing goals; I have a lot of pieces that I would like to fit in again. I chose the shorts because it’s my favorite pair and because I gained a lot of the more recent weight in my hips. It’s easy to hide the hips in a size 10 dress; not so much in pants or shorts.

I don’t know how difficult, or easy, it will be to lose some of the hips. I’ll just keep improving on moving more and eating better, and see how everything goes and takes the hips with them.

Let’s see how fast I can get into those shorts!

I hope these updates haven’t been too pointless for you. It has been helping me feel better about this all and maybe I’ll stumble on some helpful tips for all of us every once in awhile. If anything, you’ll see that I struggle just like many people when trying to change something in my life, but I keep pushing for more. I fail at times, yet I rarely give up on anything and that is often the key.

As always, you’re welcome to leave a comment in the section at the bottom of this or any post. It would be good to hear from people!

Thank you for reading and have a glass of water for me!

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Christian Kane- Thinking of You


No excuses- I didn’t post the regularly scheduled Monday post for this week. I am current with my Bible reading though.

It’s usually this “I Like Wednesdays” post that I am relaxed in posting.

Well, here is a song to help you through the remainder of the week. I hope that you enjoy it!

My first remembrance of Christian Kane was seeing him play Angelina Jolie’s boyfriend in “Life or Something Like It.” The movie was okay. I thought Kane was good-looking. Someone on the commentary mentioned that Kane was singing his own song (in the movie, when he’s walking down the hallway and singing under his breath). Kane’s band is called “Kane.”

More recently, Kane played Eliot Spencer, “The Hitter” on TNT’s show, “Leverage.”

“Thinking of You” was featured on “Leverage” in the episode called “The Studio Job.” Kane co-wrote it with Blair Daly.

Here's a live version of it. 

Here's a studio version of it, in case you prefer not to have the intro he gives, and all the screaming fans.

I like Kane’s voice, I enjoy this song. It has me think of that person who’s not physically around but you still think of them. If there was a strong connection between two people while they were together, it sometimes feels like it carries on even in a separation.

One can find this song in the iTunes store.

Let me know in the comment section below what you think of “Thinking of You.”

Thank you for reading and enjoy!

Friday, August 10, 2012

Healthy Go: No Brain, No Gain

Hello friend,

Today is Friday, correct? Ahh, good.

I don’t have much to report for this Healthy Go update. Why? Because my brain has apparently gone on vacation without me.

Sigh. It has been a long week of nothing.

One of the things is that I am looking after my sick cat. And an apparently aging or stubborn cat. They have both been sleeping in my room with me and it has taken a toll on my regular sleeping routine, the one that I had just gotten into. I couldn’t say how many hours I slept in a day or when I slept and when I awoke. I can’t remember much at all of the last week.

It really showed on Monday. I woke up. I knew I was supposed to eat something. I couldn’t come up with what I was supposed to eat. I don’t mean that I couldn’t decide; I mean that I couldn’t think of any foods. Then I got an idea and I went to the kitchen. I started preparing the food, then realized that I wasn’t preparing the food I had decided on. So I stopped and restarted and prepared the food I had decided on. I know I could’ve eaten whatever it was I first started preparing, but for some reason, my mind couldn’t take that. It had made a decision and it was going to happen.

Wednesday was better. The only brain malfunction was that I hadn’t prepared the emergency snack that I told myself to make. I had to go somewhere, it ended up being much longer than I had expected, and had no food and no water with me. So I picked up fast food on the way home and called it a day.

It wasn’t the usual thinking hindrance of thinking too much or anything like that. I had moments where there was pretty much nothing on my mind. I didn’t know what to do with myself.

So, I am going to figure out plans for meals ahead of time. And have some workouts or activities scheduled out. I had been keeping track of what I eat and what exercises I did, but more recording it after the fact rather than planning ahead. I’ll see how pre-planning goes.

At the least, I didn’t pig out this week. I might have under-eaten a day or two. I really can’t say since I distrust my recorded eating notes.

The sick cat is mending though. There are still things being checked and I will have to take her in again next week, but she is doing better.

Even though I didn’t do any heavy exercising this week, my left leg has been throbbing again, in the old spots as well as in a few new spots too. I don’t think it’s anything to worry about yet. The shocks are creeping back too.

Being size 10 again has been confirmed. I tried on my other 10 dress and it fit just fine. I tried on another dress that I haven’t fit in awhile and it too fits, though it could be more comfortable in the middle section. I’m excited because it means I won’t have to buy a new outfit for my friend’s themed party later this month!

That’s all I can think of to update this time. I’m sorry for the lack of brainpower behind it. I didn’t weigh in. I was going to go to the gym to weigh myself and get cardio in, but I can’t remember what happened that I didn’t go as planned.

You’re welcome to leave a comment in the section below and I will reply as soon as I am able, about a day or two.

Hope that your brain is functioning as usual and that you have a lovely week!

Thank you for reading!

Wednesday, August 8, 2012


At the window, missing her former outdoor
life. She's been a house-cat for several years
My little MegaMouth has been feverishly scratching herself.

For my Facebook friends, this is the cat that sleeps in sock drawers, sinks, shoe boxes, in the closet nook, on the computer tower (until I put my shoes there so she couldn't anymore), any small cranny she can find, and shoves me over on the bed. I recently found her behind the shelves, wondering how to get back out and calling for backup.

We got her to the vet. She has a flea allergy. Just one bite makes her itch like mad.

I feel bad. I know what uncomfortable, itchy skin is like. I have eczema. Also, we used to have rabbits; just one rabbit hair on my skin made me itch like mad. I would have to bathe three times to get my skin to calm down again. When I said “bathe,” I meant “scrub until I bled.”

That’s pretty much what Mega has been doing, scratching and licking and biting herself. I should have taken Mega-babe in sooner.

The nurse just adored Mega, of course! Mega has a cute little flat face- they think she might have some Japanese Manx in her blood. The nurse said she was so calm and stayed in place as she was weighed and then took two injections to help her get well again. The nurse said that cats usually have a short-attention span there.

And of course, Mega showed everyone there how she got her name- she was louder than I can remember.

We got MegaMouth home.

I gave her the last medication for now.

By nighttime, she was exhausted. Mega fell asleep in her water bowl. I put her back in the carrier and she made no protest. She loves people but she hates being carried.

I’ve had her in my room since the night before the vet visit. I know she loves having her own food and water bowl. She showed signs of the second trait that earned her the name; she has been eating like a feline Michael Phelps… and she weighs only 8 lbs., which is on the low side for a cat.

And since she’s in my room, I haven’t been getting quality sleep but that’s okay. I’m doing that parent thing sometimes where I just watch her sleep to make sure she’s breathing. I want to pet her but think I shouldn’t wake her up.
She's not drinking, she's sleeping in her water.
Tuckered out in the carrier, her new room.

She climbed the mountain of shelves to claim another spot.

See Chick-a-dee and Roar in the back?
Chickie still squeaks but Roar doesn't roar

She was still pretty tired the next day too.

But, she’s not scratching and fidgeting so much. And I think she’s made herself very at home in the carrier.

The other two cats got flea medication also. The home remedies for fleas are definitely not working as well as was hoped. It didn’t get out of control, but it didn’t get rid of the fleas entirely either.

So, for now, I’m going to find out other things to do to clean the carpets and such to take care of the fleas and step up the efforts majorly; hopefully I find something that works better for our situation.

And for now, I’m monitoring MegaMouth as much as I can. I’ll be taking Mega in for a checkup this week.
Her new food bowl.

Thank you for reading and here’s to healthier pets and homes!

Monday, August 6, 2012

God is Good: Full-of-Faith Musings During A Storm of Life

Me with one who lifts my spirits. Everyone should have a
friend like her! [...preferably in the same town as you! Haha!]

Hello reader,

I have been keeping up on my Bible reading, which I usually post about on Mondays. Other than always speeding, my mind has been processing a lot of things that are out of the ordinary for me. I am also watching over a sick kitty. The usual Monday post, while not very eloquent normally, would have been even more scattered I think.

Instead, here is a post that I prepared earlier last week. I think it is somewhat coherent.

I hope that you are well,


[Sorry for any disorder in this post; I’m writing this more in a journal/ diary style entry]

I mentioned in a previous post that I have been reading Lisa Bevere’s “Be Angry but Don’t Blow It.” I’ve read all the chapters and have only the 21 day practice to go through. I was going to start it this past Monday [it’s set up to begin on a Monday] but I’m putting it aside for a little while as other things have taken precedence.

I’ve said that I’m not an angry person where people would suggest anger management for me. I suppose that I have been harboring anger in my heart though. Definitely I’ve been angry with myself on numerous occasions. Part of it is just expecting more out of myself and challenging myself, so when I disappoint myself, I get a little angry. Other parts of it are just… I can’t say here.

So, I had gotten Bevere’s book in order to help me process the pain and some anger of the past few years. Another book that has helped me process is Rebecca Alonzo’s “The Devil in Pew Number Seven,” as well as the Bible of course. I recommend all three books.

Back to Bevere and my pain, this was not a pain that I kept to myself; it would not have been possible for me to keep it to myself as I am in the habit of doing. It was a public thing that caused the pain. Others were aware that I was in pain, but I mostly bore it myself, and that has greatly prolonged the healing.

The book has helped me with anger that I didn’t even know… I mean, I don’t know exactly what I was angry about or why, an anger that I didn’t even know was there.

I think there are some, if not all, pains that one shouldn’t bear alone, or shouldn’t have to bear alone. Just to have a parent, a sibling, a friend, someone to say, “Go ahead, I’m here,” has the ability to do wonders for helping along someone in pain. I have gone a very long time without and I’m afraid it shows.

Where is there anyone whom has never felt pain?

Something else happened with reading “Be Angry;” more healing than I imagined happened, or is happening, and I hope that this time I am right. I don’t always enjoy being “right” but I would like to be right this time.

I believe that God has and is always preparing me for more, and that is what he did in this time as well.

I could have added more anger to the list this past week. I still sense it, right beyond my reach and I’m okay with that at the moment. I don’t need to pick it up and wear it. I am giving it to God who is the only one who is able to bear it all.

I took a risk and asked for a small relief from someone I had never really relied on before for this kind of thing. I couldn’t go to my usual person for it, not this time. I just wanted some small relief so that I could pick myself up again and move on, that’s all I wanted. I just wanted to hear those words again: “It’s okay.”

It didn’t work out like that at all, and it is okay. I wanted to say more in reply, but I held my tongue. I don’t need to pick up the offense and I don’t need to add to it.

I had a moment of anger when I wanted to punch something, and I was able to take out some of the physical energy on some milk cartons and aluminum foil. But otherwise, I was able to control myself.

I had a moment when my nerves, and a roach, got the best of me, but only for a moment. I cried, closed my eyes for a bit, took a breath, and carried on.

I felt God say it, as he always does but I don’t always hear it: “It’s okay.”

The preparation: 5 things, that I’m aware of- there may have been much more.

1- Recently, I have gotten back on track with my one-year Bible reading plan. I had gone about a year of not reading the Bible at all and something at the start of this year told me, “Enough!” Still, I stalled with reading around March, and then picked up again in June and got caught up in July. I have been consistent so far.

Along with not reading the Bible, I haven’t been doing much of anything else either. I haven’t been going to church, and I’m still working that out. I wasn’t praying much at all. Getting caught up with reading, I started to pray a little more.

And it’s difficult to say why I stopped or why I lagged in my reading, or why I’m picking things up again. For now, I’m going to say that God drew me close to him again and I am glad it happened before this past week happened, so that I was a little more prepared and so that it was expected that I would go to God with all of it.

2- Reading “Be Angry” before this past week happened has also been a good preparation. I was able, on several occasions, to see the offense, register it, work it out, and then let it go. I gave it to God.

Before this week, I had often wondered about what it meant when people would say, “Give it to God.” Now I understand it a little more.

3- I had gone to my friend’s Bible study a couple times. They are going through Beth Moore’s study on David. It is a fantastic study and Beth Moore, a wonderful teacher. Her spirit resonates with my spirit in a good way, and that’s how I know that it’s right.

Beth Moore’s teaching is the other part of understanding a little more of what it means to “Give it to God.” I have her voice in my head telling me that He is the only one who can bear it all. Not only that he can, but he wants to, which is amazing.

If I had that lesson before, or if I had missed Moore’s lesson this recent time, I don’t know but I wouldn’t have been as prepared as I was now.

4- On July 15th, this was my public post on Facebook:
“Does God answer prayers? He did today. It was such a simple thing but so very effective and for what I’ve been asking for a long time. I’m not there yet God, but I got your message.”

That Sunday, I received a call from someone from my former church. It was a few minutes. She called to say that she was thinking about me and wanted to know that I am missed. She asked me how I am doing. She said that no one told her to call me [apart from the Holy Spirit perhaps]; she’s not on any outreach committee who had me on a list or anything.

She didn’t ask if I’m going to another church. She didn’t say that this-or-that department at church could use some workers and would I be interested.

We just talked a little. She offered her friendship, that I could talk to her whenever I wanted, she’ll be there for me.

I teared up while talking with her. And… I’m familiar and friendly with her family, though not particularly “close” with them. So I was a bit surprised by the call.

To be fair, a few others have contacted me in the past, since I had left the church. Mostly, it has been off-putting though. The good ones: a hand-written note, from someone whom I’m ashamed that I’m not sure who they are, telling me that she was thinking of me and that I am missed, and also that God has a plan for me, and other encouragements; and a quick message from a young friend, so full of faith in me, or more so, full of faith in God to continue his work in me.

These things have brought me to good tears.

5- Back in June, I restarted, or started really for the first time on a journey of health. I am glad that I began it when I did and no later, or I could be in worse shape right now, mentally and physically. I have already written about some of this preparation here [Healthy Go: Sleep Okay? And Preparation].

I’ve also gotten a glimpse into what Job meant when he said:
“Naked I came from my mother’s womb,
And naked shall I return there.
The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away;
Blessed be the name of the Lord.”
[Job 1: 21; NKJV]

It is echoed in the song “Praise You in This Storm” by Casting Crowns:
“As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
‘I’m with you’
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God
Who gives and takes away.”

It was what caused wonder in me as I watched a woman live it out. She continued to come to church even as she grieved her husband’s passing away. I had the chance to ask her about that and I get it now.

 I am, perhaps, yet cautious about hoping [and moving towards] great, great, great things. This is different for me, as people have told me and I am now starting to accept, that I am ambitious. Not in a conquer-the-world-and-answer-to-no-one kind of way, like a Napoleon-type. I am not a dictator, as have been said of me.

I suppose I am just ambitious enough that in general, I keep moving, keep challenging myself, keep expecting that I ought to be better in the next moment than I am in this one.

I want things in life, and I’m willing to do the work.

Or, that’s how I used to be and I’m starting to find me again.

Is God good? He is so very good.

Mahalo for reading.

P.S. You are welcome to post a comment in the box below. Perhaps, share a praise or a prayer request below and I will certainly pray for you whichever it is.

Friday, August 3, 2012

Healthy Go: Sleep Okay? And Preparation

Strong-willed... in a dress!

Life pushed me this week, as it does. I pushed back. Never start a shove match with a strong-willed person.

I didn’t do any set workouts this week, but I was more active throughout the day than I usually am, taking care of tasks here and there. I know my shoulders got a workout; I didn’t have to move to feel them when I went to sleep at night.

I was on my feet a lot more, but just standing and walking, so no mountain climbers or kickboxing. I think this break was good for my left leg at least. When I had started to do the workouts again, my knee ached and throbbed more than usual and I got nerve shocks by my tendon a lot more. The shocks were getting to where it interrupted my sleep because I felt like one was coming on, and sometimes I was woken up by a shock. And the shocks were lasting longer and feeling more intense.

So the break from active workouts while still standing and moving around was good for my leg. The aches have gone down; it only aches sometimes when I try to sleep on my side instead of on my back and the arch of my foot hasn’t hurt as much either.

Life doesn’t always go as planned. Be prepared.

I am so glad that I started on this path when I did and no later. I had no appetite this week but I didn’t want to undo what work I’ve done and so I still ate how I have been eating for the past month. I still got in at least 2 bottles of water and sometimes 3 bottles, just as I have been for the last few weeks. The workouts were the only area where I backed off a bit, but like I said, I was still active, just in different ways.

The only questionable thing was having a 7-layer burrito from Taco Bell. I marked that as my indulgence for the week. I hadn’t had one in a long time.

So it was an okay week. Not bad. Not great.

I did, however, not have any sodas! One goal down, many to go….

Getting enough quality sleep is healthy.

I am terrible at getting enough sleep. I am a night owl. I feel more energized during the cool of the night.

Falling asleep is difficult. My mind races all day and then it races as I lay down to sleep. One would think racing all day would make me tired, but apparently not.

And, I cannot sleep if I feel the tiniest inkling that I might have to pee. TMI? Sorry.

Anyways, I finally searched to read if it’s a common thing or what, and if there were any pointers to alleviate that and possibly fall asleep better. It seems that responses varied.

So I decided to try cutting off liquids at 8 pm. Then I started to also take my sleep aids at that time, if I remember to. The last few days, this process has been working out pretty well. If I remember to take the sleep aids at 8 pm, I will get tired between 10 and midnight, which is the goal for now.

Waking up… now, that’s a different story. I still wake up anywhere between 3 am and 2 pm. It depends on how often I wake up in the night and such. It hasn’t been too bad, as I’ll usually wake up between 7 and 11 am; that seems to be the most general time. I mean, this new sleeping ritual has only been implemented for about the last week and a half, so maybe my body is still adjusting to what’s going on.

I have noticed, though, that more often now when I do wake up in the middle of the night, it’s been easier for me to get back to sleep again; that is a good sign.

This week’s stats----
Weight: no weigh in
Size: 10
Activity: no set workouts; physical tasks
Food: maintaining calorie goal; looking to eat healthier foods in general
Liquids: H2O 48+ oz. (looking to increase); NO SODAS!

Current Goal----
To fit into the size 10 dress comfortably.
Accomplished! It could still fit a little easier in the chest area, or it’s that I’m not comfortable wearing a strapless, but I was able to get the dress on and off on my own like when I had first bought and worn it!

It's official- I'm a 10! ...again!
I'm swishing the dress because it fits!

Next Goal----
August 2012 Measurements- click
to see larger view.
Hmm… I only realized now that I fit the dress that I didn’t really think much about what the next goal should be. Size 8 dress? Lose the belly? I don’t want to underestimate myself, nor do I want to set too hard of a goal that I get discouraged. For now, let’s say an 8, and that I would get through a full run of Jillian Michael’s “Burn Fat, Boost Metabolism” DVD workout. So far, I’ve only done the warm up, and then 1 or 2 of the cycles without resting.

[See July's measurements here] Now, the measurements… I see that some of the numbers have gone down, but now I’m wondering if I’m being consistent as to where I am taking the readings. I know that during the first measurements last month, I wanted to be able to make it consistent. In pictures, I don’t know, maybe it looks like my hips have gone down. I haven’t posted pictures because it’s embarrassing and because I’ve had to rig up a way to take the pictures myself; my camara isn’t flat on the sides where I can stand it up and take a vertical timer shot- I’m working on it, or on getting someone to take the pictures for me, plus I don't have a full-length mirror so I'm kind of guessing where I am in the shot. I'll work it out.

I suppose time will tell; eventually, it will get to where I cannot deny that I’ve lost inches. That will be a good day!

I’ll turn up the focused workouts again for the next week and see how my leg reacts again, try to figure out intensity and such that will help my leg get stronger and not do more damage to it.

And if you’re wondering why I haven’t seen a doctor about my leg and exercising more, it’s because when I did see the doctor about my leg, he wasn’t all that sure about what was wrong with it. All he could come up with was “possible nerve damage.” To confess, as soon as I could walk confidently on the leg again, I have neglected the stretching and movement exercises I’m supposed to do for it, so I’ll get back to doing that also.

Anyways, I hope the next week will be full of blessings and healthy endeavors for you. As always, you’re welcome to leave a comment in the box below!

Thank you for reading!

P.S. In case you missed it, I’M A 10 AGAIN! Yay!