Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Should Something Happen: Bus

Several months ago, I had stayed late at church for something. Afterwards, I waited at the bus stop right in front of the church. Uncle saw me at the stop, called home to talk to Aunty, and I stayed unexpectedly at their house for the night.

I also got a sideways lecture from Aunty about taking the bus. Some of the points that I remember was that I need to learn to drive because this taking the bus by myself is not safe; that if I were her daughter, I would not be taking the bus; and if something were to have happened to me, the pastor would feel responsible as I was leaving a church function.

I can’t fault her much ‘cuz I know she’s only thinking of my safety.

I have continued to take the bus.

I do not like to drive. I can drive and I think I’m a rather safe driver, but I don’t like to. I doubt that I will ever like driving. Traffic. Unsafe drivers. Parking. Paying for parking. Thieves. Gas prices. Having enough gas in the tank. Debris on the road. Getting a flat. Heavy rains. At times, just the sight of a piece of a blown-out tire can freak me out.

One is never completely safe. Anything could happen to me at anytime, anywhere, in any manner of ways. However, I do take some comfort in knowing that God watches over me. Not that God will place a bubble of protection around me, but I remind myself that no matter what may happen to me, He is there to hold my hand, to comfort me through anything. I think about the people who HAVE TO take the bus to get through their lives and those who do not know God’s comfort. I don’t see my life as any more valuable than theirs that I should have a car to get around. Having a car is a privilege that I choose not to use. [Well, the car doesn’t even belong to me; I just have use of one if I ask].

That isn’t to say that I do not value my life or that I’m cavalier about traveling alone because “I’ve got God.” I am as vigilant about my safety as I can be at any given moment. I remain aware of my surroundings, look over my shoulder every 5 seconds like the crazy person that I am and sport a polite smile while trusting no one. I rarely sleep on the bus and try to sit next to another female if possible. [All the while, I do try to keep open to opportunities to share God with others].

And don’t think that my parents don’t care about my safety that they make me ride the bus. It worries my parents a great deal when they know I am out on my own, even if I am driving the car. They understand my reasons though. They also understand that they can’t be with me at every single moment.

Should something happen to me as I travel by bus, please remind me that God will not allow more than I can handle, that He is with me even now. I might forget for a moment but not for a lifetime. Do not in any way feel responsible should something bad happen to me, do not place me in a bubble; God is in control and at work in my life.

And I thank all my friends who have looked after my safety in travels as well. Thank you for waiting at the stop with me. Thank you for the rides. Thank you for all the prayers. I have traveled dangerous areas by foot and by bus, by myself. I have been kept safe through Oakland, SF, LA, LV, areas of Oregon, and here in Hawai‘i. Thank you.

Mahalo for reading and vaya con Dios as we go out there and minister to each other wherever we travel!

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Random Music Play [Quiz Mode]

As if you weren’t getting the essence of my randomness, here’s the musical version. I saw a couple of my fb friends do this, one made it a guessing game. I thought the guessing game would be more fun.

Mahalo for reading and playing the game!

Step 1: Put your music player on shuffle
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 25 songs that play
Step 3: Strike through the songs when someone guesses both artist and track correctly.

Rule: No looking up the words from sources that are not biologically part of your body.

**Jenn: I decided to put only one song each of non-English language songs [or you’d have 3 more songs in Spanish to guess], skipped over music with no lyrics and listed one per artist. And think, these are only the songs I have on my ipod; my itunes is even more random!**

1] “Todo cambió cuando te vi. De blanco y negro al color me convertí.”

2] “Too alarming now to talk about. Take those pictures down and shake it out.”

3] “Since the moment I spotted you, like walking 'round with little wings on my shoes.”

4] “Go to bed, everything’s alright. Don’t know the whole world’s changing as you sleep through the night.”

5] “Fell in love with a boy. I fell in love once and almost completely.”

6] “Speak and say the words that no one else will ever say.”

7] “Whenever I’m alone with you, you make me feel like I am home again.”

8] “Up to my ears in bitter tears, can’t believe I’ve sunk this low as I walk the plankton innersanctum.”

9] “Come my lady, come come my lady. You’re my butterfly, sugar, baby.”

10] “I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared.”

11] “So you wanna come at me, like you wanna come and play.”

12] “Ninety miles outside Chicago, can’t stop driving, I don’t know why.”

13] “So many of us breathing and thinking that we know it all.”

14] “I wanna love you and treat you right.”

15] “I am the conqueror. I taste your scent in the wind.”

16] “Second you caught my eye, girl, I couldn’t deny that you got me on fire.”

17] “I break. I borrow. I live. I lose. I break. I’m hollowed. I’m dead, confused. I’ll find you.”

18] “Stars shining bright above you. Night breezes seem to whisper, ‘I love you.’”

19] “Something in your eyes makes me wanna lose myself, makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms.”

20] “September girls do so much and for so long, ‘til we touched, I loved you boy…”

21] “Far away from it all, you and me with no one else around.”

22] “Wake up to a sunny day, not a cloud up in the sky and then it starts to rain.”

23] “Was it you who spoke the words that things will happen but not to me.”

24] “I’m so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears.”

25] “Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking, when you fall everyone stands.”

Friday, February 20, 2009

How Random Are You? [Part Two]

Alright, here’s the explanation for the recent randomness. I was tagged on FB by my friend Tongs to do the list that was in Part One. I figured, “I’ll do it. I can be random, no problem.” Then I realized, her status updates are pretty random themselves. I told her she didn’t need a Random note, her updates were random enough. She replied that they’re not any more random than my updates.

I would’ve liked to post her most recent 25 updates and then have you tell me which list is more random, but respect her privacy, I’m only gonna post my most recent 25 updates starting with the latest update. What do you think, is this list random?

Oh, and each one starts with “Jennifer…” For awhile, I got tired of ending sentences with “.” so I started to alternate between “?” and “!” just to make it more fun. I think I’ll start doing that again. Once again, mahalo for reading and please leave a comment!

Most Recent 25 Status Updates
25. loves!

24. thinks jerk drivers w/vanity plates shouldn’t ride my bumper on the freeway. Anyone know the driver of SATOMI?

23. saw J get hit by a van?

22. :surprise visit w/the grandparents!

21. :random update?

20. now has enough for one friend for every day of the year, wish it were that easy to KIT with everyone!

19. is terrorizing her own kind!

18. :forget this, I’m going to sleep!

17. :wild horse!

16. :one big hand!

15. :once again, the driver is the lone survivor!

14. is being held hostage and made to listen to random music!

13. got mugged by a sweaty polar bear?

12. :it’s been too long, she shall now faint over a soft surface, please do not revive before dawn!

11. :mary embrey I am not?

10. :dad said, “what’s wrong with you?!?!”

9. :it’s okay, I only need one leg?

8. :no known surviving passengers!

7. is not at brian’s with J guys!

6. :coffee bean and tea leaf in hand, now to raid bro’s fridge!

5. is gonna go run in a crooked line!

4. is speak no evil, hear no evil, and smell no evil…?

3. kept the epic boys in line!

2. loves her whole family!

1. :cabbage for dinner…yummmm!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

How Random Are You? [Part One]

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I am busy with the Big D [thesis] so I thought I would just repost on here something that I had already posted on FB so for some of you, this is a repeat. I can't be sure that everyone that reads this is on FB or saw this note of mine on there and it does relate to a conversation I had with a friend I had recently which I shall explain in Part Two [and hopefully I get around to Part Two! :D].

So, here is part one of the Randomness. Please leave any comments you may have, random thoughts of your own, which random of mine you really liked, which one you'd like more explanation on, etc. I'm gonna say here "Mahalo for reading in!" and let you get to the list below!

The Aftermath of Being Tagged By Tongs


Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

To do this, go to "Notes" under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.

***Jennifer says:

1. I'm wondering if there are 25 people on here that I wanna know more about or cares to know more about me.

2. I like cabbage.

3. I'm fairly certain I have no children I do not know about running around out there somewhere.

4. I have a mildly autistic cat with middle-cat syndrome.

5. I do not like coffee. YES, this includes COFFEE candy. If I drink coffee, it is black, and I fall asleep 10 minutes later.

6. I am not easily creeped out, which is how I am able to get along so well with some of you. If you're wondering if you are one of the "some of you"…

7. I am the sole cause of my mother's white hairs [if she indeed has any…]

8. I have 3 phones in my room and yet am the least talkative in the house.

9. I am very appreciative that my brother didn't mess with my mind as much as he could have when we were little. I've realized how much more screwed up I could have been if he had. As it is, I learned from his example and now mess with other peoples' minds!

10. Guava cake is my favorite kind.

11. Stealth on google. Try it.

12. I've never been out of the country but the next place I want to go to is either Kauai or Hilo. After that, maybe Uganda.

13. For such a list as this, I'm gonna make my own rules.

14. Per #13, I'm gonna tag who I want, however many I want 'cuz I don't give a baa-ing goat!

15. I should clip my toe nails.

16. I am not a chocol-aholic, shopaholic, shoe-aholic, phone-aholic, worried about showing my un-make-upped un-caked-up face kind of female. But I am other kinds of -holics.

17. Romantic to me would be getting me the Elfquest graphic novels 6, 7, & 8.

18. I like making up my own words and by doing so will probably piss off a foreigner one day but I'm not gonna let that rain on my fun.

19. I don't care if you like me or not, which is one of the MANY reasons people do like me.

20. My mom once thought I might have an eating disorder so I gained 25 lbs. to ease her mind.

21. Call me "Jenny" if you want to be ignored.

22. I've been told many times that I have a unique way of thinking.

23. Hence, some of these, like 90% of my status updates, probably require further explanation, for which you may or may not get but one can always ask.

24. I am generally a deeply private person.

25. See #24.

26. See # 13.

27. I'm wondering what your definition of "random" is and whether or not I have completed the task of writing "random" things 'cuz while I don't exactly follow rules, I do like to finish things.

28. When you begin to get my humor without explanation and/or begin to not be offended by anything I say, these are good signs you might wanna stop hanging out with me.

***Jennifer says: If I tagged you, I figured you'd get a laugh out of this somewhere. I don't expect you to do this, unless your name is -------! Though, I would like to know more about people.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Basic Requirements

I dread questions about my "love life" [as if life isn't about loving, but that's its own entry]. I have a difficult time answering such general questions. A few months ago, a friend asked me about my type. Being me, I didn't know if he meant blood type, specie type,…. Okay, I knew what he meant.

After many many many more questions, what was concluded was that "my type" of guy would be an athletic outdoorsy Asian Christian actively involved with a ministry in the church. That's not it. That's starting to get too specific.

When I say I have a difficulty answering general questions, neither did I mean that I have such specific answers for those questions. When it comes to "my type," if someone asked me if a specific person is my type, I could then say yes or no. Or maybe. I could possibly give reasons for thinking so. And it helps if I know the guy personally. Though I most likely will avoid answering such a question because it just wouldn't be right.

And I could still be wrong. I try to leave this in God's control.

However, in other conversations and experiences, I do have some basic requirements that I would like to see in a guy whom is interested in dating me. Here they are:

Basic Requirements To Dating Me Eligibility:
1. Have been born a male and is yet a male.
2. Is alive.
3. Be able to legally drink alcohol [doesn't need to be an alcohol drinker, just old enough to].
4. Not be old enough to have been my father.
5. Loves kids!
6. Be able to properly change a flat tire. If not, have the guts to face my dad and learn from him!
7. Is able to spell my name correctly before sending me flowers or gifts of any sort.
8. Is able to discuss things with me.
9. Be taller than me by at least 3 inches.
10. Be willing to do all or most of the driving.
11. Get along with Jules, she may have pre-final approval some day!

*Highly sensitive guys with no sense of humor need not apply.

**Bonus Material: speaks a foreign language, especially if it is Spanish or Chinese; volleyball player and/or swimmer; good singer; an intellectual.

I could definitely say more about all this. That's not really specific, right?

In all seriousness though, when it comes to the possibility of a romantic relationship in the future, I'm more focused on becoming a woman worthy of a good relationship.

Mahalo for reading!